I just went to friendster& saw what matthew wrote to me. He wrote me a comment. He says,"don't be so xl lar...." I really dont know what to do. I know I've becomed more& more guailan& xialan. I've become like that for a reason. I've been more bad tampered too. But it's not only I've changed. I guarantee that matthew did change too. He have also becomed more& more guailan. I really am cooling down. I have no mood to do things. Noone can cheer me up. I really hate this feeling. Could anyone try cheering me up. This kind of feeling is making me feel worser than usual. I really dont know what to do. The police really looking for me le lah. I know it isnt that serious. I realised that I am running away from every problems that I am facing. Reality is, I cant do anything. I feel damn freakked out. Bedok& Yiochukang de police station. I need to go to both of those places on Monday. I really dont want to go to bedok der. I cant. I dont want to sabo anyone. I mean, who likes to be saboed? Sabo people, in the end if people buay song also tio whack. I dont know lar. I dont even know how Cyndi is facing ahlee& the rest. I dont even know what is happeningg to them. Really very long never contact them lerr. I really want back my phone. Haish. Matthew, Jacq& charlotte& the rest, I dont know what to do le lar. Our friendship is fading away le. I mean, your friendship& mine. It isnt good at all.
I wish that everything in life changed for me.
I wish that there was someone good for me.
I wish that there is someone there for me.
I wish that there wouldnt be anyone in the wrong.
I wish that everything would vanish into thin air.
I wish that God give me a chance to prove myslf right.
I wish that nothing in this world ever goes wrong.
I wish I wish I wish I wish that I couldnt wish.
Cause none of the wishes that I've wished have ever came true. None of them.
One last wish.
I wish upon those stars that god showed me in the sky that you will always be here for me.